Today...at home watch one show..then i found one line..but then i forget liao...haha...but it mean that when a man get hurt, he wont be able to love someone easily...hmmm...i agree to it...but then when he is able to love that somebody and then was hurt again, it will be hard for him to trust love...haha...haiz...i know this very welll...:) hmmm....after that we went to 511 eat with wp marcus zy and serene...:) den eat finish we sit there talk talk lo...haha...talk abt our sec sch life again...haha...very fun...:)

Haiz...like i said my intuition is always right...i know wat i mean...coz i always prove myself right...it always happen to wat i have predicted....and it seems that i have been bluffing to myself all along...:) i knew all these will happen its only the matter of time...now its only halfway to wat i have expected...:) i cant handle the stress....:( haiz...anyway nitez!!

OK...Screw the upload for the video...Zzz...load a few hours still cannot upload...wth la...wasting my time la...haiya...i think i wont be uploading the F1 video liao la...Zzz...but then i will still try ba...haha...ok...

Hmmm...today...eh...woken up by the voice that i wanted to hear every morning...i don mind being woken up by the same voice every morning even if i had not enough slp...:) haha....today whole day at home lo...den around 6 plus go jogging...haha....after that went to bball with my sister...den we two nvr eat our dinner....ZZZ....i juz eat finish only...thats why so late then slp...LOL...den my sis nvr eat dao la...coz she cannot wait then go slp liao...haha...ok la...i gotta slp liao...haha...nitez!!!

haha...ask the staff take for us de...:)
Hugging The Mrt Pole Part 2...:) thos who saw the last time wan will know...:)

So gay..-.-

Omg....Obscene...:p
Skilled right...LOL...still can take tio...~LOL...another wan...haha...

Nice right...hungry hor!!! :x
OK la..tonight will blog again...:)

Today....Haiz...don wan to say la...come home only...see the kuku com...damn pissed off la...-.-...den wan to blog also hard la...haiz...today went out with zy they all...derek wan to go bugis buy jeans den marcus wan to make his phone...so derek end up bought one jeans liao...den we go back to marcus make hp shop there...zzz..haven his turn sia...i damn hungry la...morning nvr eat daooo~ dinner...Zzz...den still have to wait...but then the uncle also good la...make his wan first...haha...

After marcus hp we decided to go eat steamboat....haha...go the tian tian steam boat...:) after that marcus say the uncle can bring us go the F1 there....Wuhaha...den we go lo...damn nice sia the F1 cars...haiz...pics and F1 video will blog tml...:) because of this kuku com...ZZZ...tml i will fix this damn com den i will post the pics and video le...Haiz...i damn miss her sia...how abt her...?? haiz...but then i cant msg her also...:(...don wan to disturb her from studies...haiz...hope she is studying well...haiz...and i think she also wont be reading my blog liao le...haiz...cause i rather she use this time to study....haiz...ok la...tml will blog the pics and video after fixin this DAMN COM! hiaz...tot can slp early...end up this stupid com give problems....arghhh!!! ok la...got to slp liao le...NITEZ!!

Hmmm....juz return home after my dinner with zy they all...I really got no mood this few days...haiz...Nvm la...i wan to slp liao...The best way of me forgetting eveything is by slping...but then i will cant slp also...haha...nvm la...good nitez!!

Today.....cant stand to stay at home...miss her but then cant see her...haiz...so i went out alone...busy tahan...at home i very stress up...-.-...don know why...haiz...don wan to stay at home...so today i went to pasir ris beach...:)

Walk past her house that way to beach...hmmm...saw horses...:) den hor...got one...zzz...i walk past...don knwo is urine or shit...Knn i hear fart sound...den like running tap like that come out of his butt...zzz...damn disgusting...-.-...den i carry on walking to the stone there...i hear the water sound...is juz so peaceful....haha...i feel damn shiok...LOL...like drama only hor...haha...but its true ma...:) den goin to 4 like that i leave lo...walk very big detour don wan to go home so early...haiz...

End up i got meet dao her....haha....happy is definitely de...but then also smth happen juz now...den i also bo bian leave early...Yup...i walk home from pasir ris...:) i was raining all the way home...haha...the most heaviest rain of my life...:) haiz...all i need was three things...Love, Care and Concern...but it seems that...it hard...as i get was Accusation, Pity, Sympathy and Misunderstandings...haiz...nvm la...i used to it le....:) ok Nitez!!!

RELAX LA...-.-...all like wan to kill me because of my previous post like that....chill man...i can handle it myself...:) don worry...:) ok...eh...today i went to fetch her...den after that eat liao den she go home le...haiz...i tot todya can spend my day with her de...but then nvm luh...:( but then i don wan to go home la...go home stress luh...den also juz fix this kuku com nia...zzz....anyway....juz now i went to a canal...ya...that is the place that i wont forget...:) haha...don know why i can stay there for 2 hrs plus la...LOL...alone some more...but nvm luh...i wan to be alone too...hmmm...have to go coz got one stupid german shepherd...zzz...see dao me den like wan to eat me like that...-.-...see me den bark like siao...bo bian don wan to give the maid xin ku...den i walk to bus stop den i go my house the canal there hahax...walk to the bridge also...haha...den i go home lo...

LOL...tell you all smth...My "menses" irregular de...haha...come again...:x WUHAHAHA...ok la....wan to slp anyway...don worry abt me ba...i am fine...:) AND....Good Luck For Her Exams...NITEZ!!!

Hmmm...Today...i go cycle alone...ya...haiz....i was thinking of her all along....does she think of me all along too?? haiz...sry dear that i cant see u today...i cannot handle the stress that i have been liao...wanted to be alone and also to breathe some freah air and make myself feel better...haiz..hope u understand..after that meet dao zy marcus qy and wp den cycle to kallang kfc...eat lo...den drink lo...den i wanted to go home liao...i try to rush back by 12 so as not to make her worry also...but in the end i am not in time...haiz...i seriously miss her....and i wan to see her...haiz...ok la...i wan to slp liao...NITEZ!!

Hmmm...Today post shall be questions that i thought today when i was on my bed for hours...i don know why but then i was thinking alot not only today...but every other day...is like i don know how to answer it...neither can u all help me answer...haiz...it makes me wonder and ponder alot...haiz...i feel very bad now...not feeling good...haiz


Yup...At this point of time...i am crying...while i think all these when i was on bed this afternoon i was crying too...i don have to hide...but wat can i do....Will anyone understand how i feel....Anwer is No...no one can understand or feel how i am feeling right now.....Haiz...those who see these..don come ask me what happened or question me anything...i don wan to hear u all asking me anything abt this...don give comments opinions or even mention abt this.....
All these can only be answer by myself...i got to search the answers from the inner self of me...the me that will be able to answer to this question...the me that has all the answers to these question...and the me who i wan to reflect on...haiz....i am sad this time...real sad...but i will nvr let u all see this side of me...think all u wan...say all u wan...i cant do anything...haiz....But now here is another thing before i go to sleep.......

Will i be able to find that inner me....?? Will i take forever to find that me....?? Or will these question be left unanswered...?? I really don know...i seriously don know....Nitez...

My 100th post....Today i whole day at home la...den keep slping also...zzz...haiz...and i am feeling sad too...coz i cant see her and some things happened also...haiz...but then there is nth that i can do...haiz...i juz hope things will be fine for me...and hope that i can be wrong for the first time..i am feeling lousy..........real lousy this time...but wat can i do...haiz...wat can i really do........nvm...slp le....NITEZ!!!

Today...went to Simlim with zy mark and derek coz zy wan to buy graphic card for his com...den ask me withdraw $100...LOL...den end up go see that time...only $95 nia...haha...but he lend 30 coz he buy one collection figure...Sasori de...haha...den after that i feel like i am their father like that...coz when marcus say he no money...LOL...i give him money buy luh...is like i feel like their father lo...LOL...but then end up marcus nvr buy wat he wan coz of don knwo wat la...end up only zy lend lo...den i quickly walk back to simlim luh...coz my dear wait very long there luh...den don wan her to wait...sry dear....purposely get a green tea for her too...:)

After that...den go to his house lo...to fix the new graphic card...:) fix finish le....den went to dick hosue lo...slack there...drink abit there and den talk talk lo..laugh laugh lo...nth much also...den see derek and marcus whole face is red daooooo~....hahax....den after that i send my dear home before i go home luh...:) very very happy that she come back again...:) only i understand...hehe...ok la...wan to slp le...GOOD NITEZ!!

Today went to her sch to surprise her...hope she is happy to see me...den after that went out with dear...but then she go home first lo...so i downstairs wait and sing song...:p...den went to cinneleisure...tot of watching movei de...but then nvr liao...den we also hungry lo...so went to see wat to see...den found out of LJS....hahax...so we go there eat lo...den after that walk walk awhile before meeting her cousin there to take smth for her...den she chat with her lo...while her cousin wait for frens....saw firdaus working in the sport shop there...Hi den go le...haha...after that nvr go meet zy they all coz no people meetin so nvm lo...we went to far east to see things...:)

After that don knwo where to go den we go back to pasir ris le...haiz...slack awhile...den she go to go home le...i cant bear to leave her sia...seriously i cant bear to...haiz...ok la...soon slping also...NITEZ!!! oh ya the video of me -.-...kanna played...and i look damn gay...-.-...haha...NITEZ!!

No Matter Wat Happens, U Will Always Be My Dear, My Darling And My Cute Little Princess...Muacks...I Love You...

Today went to fetch my dear from sch...coz she say she can meet ma...den i also very happy...:) haiz..we den went to talk lo...yup...talk abt alot of things...hmmm...den after that go meet zy derek marcus julius and ger lo...and ya...they ok liao...good for them la...hmmm...den juz now i was totally not in the mood for anything also...don feel like talk lo..damn wan to be alone...and tot of not meeting them at the first place also...anyway still meet luh...haiz...den also hor...i don know why la...i accidentally broke one pot in NTUC...i don know why so careless also la...den i faster leave the place lo.....anyway...still meet luh...den after that zy julius and ger go home lo...den me mark dick and derek haven wan to go home yet...

They say they wan to go walk at T2 awhile den we go one place very quiet wan...den i straight away tot of bringing my dear come also...but then....haiz....anyway talk abt their plane experience...den also they say wan to go japan...$1.4k..zzz...i rather stay in singapore...LOL...den my dear call me...Yay~....den i quickly run to another place to pick up my call...i was delighted that she will call me...ya...happy...hmmm..talk to her awhile lo...:) den after that she go to slp also...so hang le...haiz...den i also go back talk lo...den i ask them wat is their ideal home lo...had a while chat den go home le...yup....got to slp le...GOOD NITEZ!!!

Today...marcus ask for gym luh...den i also lazy leh...but then hor i will go again some day...haha...den went to study with dear....she cant study la...haiyo...i kepp forcing her lo...den hor she scared fat la :x but then hor...still eat 6 packet of mayo....zzz...and two packet of fries...haha...but still we eat luh....hehe...after that she study lo...but then i know that she study cannot go in de...coz hor...got me beside...LOL...sure tio distracted de...haha...haiz...very worry for her test and upcoming exams sia...ZZZ...will try my best to give her the moral support to help her study well ba....tml i think meeting her cousin for study also...hahax...ok la...i wan to slp after i eat liao le...NITEZ!!!

Today...i go meet dear after sch at around 4 lo...she got her oral ma...hope she get well for it ...den after that she go home first coz she need to take books to study...lol...den we go elias mall to study with her sis...den i also teach her sis la...coz PSLE coming soon also....haha....after that we go eat cup noodles...den suddenly her sis go buy smth...end up is buy candles...LOL...so we go play lo...when the candles are lighting, i suddenly feel very bless when she is beside me...haha...i hope time could freeze at that time...i love her luh.....muacks!!! around 9 plus den go home le...coz her parents call...so bo bian lo...hmmm..reach home msg alos den now she slp le...so i also soon slp le...haha...ok la...NITEZ!!!

Today..i tot night can go meet my dear...but then cant..coz she have to go her grandma house...haiz...i miss her........Hmmm...anyway today....went to play bball with marcus doug julius xiao wei weiping and zy....haha...play until very funny...LOL....den hor...marcus the last finger on the leg hor...don know call wat la...the nail break...HAHA...den hor...he is pain daooooooo~....haiyooo~....den hor....he don dare to pull the nail...haha...we help him also don wan...zzz...after that...i call my dear...we talk talk lo....very happy to hear her voice..but very sad to hear the things....haiz......after we hang i go back find marcus they all...zzz...marcus nail still haven pull out...ZZZ...so long la...end up leh...zy pull for him...haha...

Den finally we can leave the place and went to coffeeshop eat lo...den go buy 7-11 buy drinks den slack at the coffeeshop there...until around 7 like that den we go home...haha...reach home liao...den rest awhile...den i use com until now lo...will slp early tonight la...don wan to let my dear worry abt me...haha...ok la...soon slping le...GOOD NITEZ!!!

Today...i tot i cant see her but then end up can see le...i was like damn happy la...haha...went to marina square to watch movie with marcus dickson jason zy zh qy ign and derek...den watch the dangerous bangkok nc16...haha...we think of ways...crazy ways also...to bring my dear in...hahax...everybody think of ways...is like...ahhhh~...so happy la...thks man...hmmm...ok la...the show not bad...hahax...den after the show we go the marina square there to eat the foodcourt...eat finish liao den go the esplanade there walk walk...

Then we walk to the expressway there hor...suddenly very smoky...LOL...reach there liao hor den found out is dry ice lai de...zzz...tot wat...den like can shoot ghost movie like that...zzz...den my shoe wet de...haha...den awhile later then the thing off diao...den we walk to mrt lo...then say want to go giant lo...actually she cant go de...but coz of me...i am so so touch...i love u dear.....muacks!!

Since so long nvr go...go there we as usual la...we "enjoy" there...haha...den around 11 like that den go home lo...they take shuttle to tm...den me and dear take shuttle to pasir ris....so reach pasir ris liao...haha...we keep playing la...run and run...hahax...den so fast reach her house le...i was like bu she de...is like suddenly the time go so fsat...haiz...den i also say don frighten me today...BUT end up she still frighten me...she say her wallet was lost...i was like OMG....i run back to where we walk and find like siao...find and find...

Find daoooo~ the shuttle bus stop there...den i still not happy...so i run back to her house there...the same way we walk back...still cant find i was like damn sad la...is like i cant find it...haiz....but then i think we drop when in the ikea bus...i juz hope that some kind soul will return...haiz...den i went to find my auntie last min...haiz...too hungry liao after i run...haiz...ok la...i juz hope some people will return my dear her wallet...it hurts to see my dear sad luh...haiz...ok la...i wan to slp le...good nitez...

Today....no now...i am damn sad le....i don wan u to think this way la...i don wan u to feel bad...this is the time i cried the worst seriously...i seriously love u and becoz i love you....i wont lie i cant lie and i cannot bring myself to lying to you....wat i know now...u all also know..u are my everything...i tear those photos coz i scared u might tot i always bring out to see..even if u say don tear i also tear into pieces..i don wan u to feel that u waste time on me....i don wan u to think i am those flirt or watever...i am not...haiz...i think i go slp le...and i don know i can slp not...good nitez....:(

Today went to the park with her...haha...today i is not slow lo...i am fast...haha....den hor we walk from her house to pasir ris park...hahax...we went the stone there sit sit...chat chat...haha....share things lo...den after that we went to the playground there to play la...haha...she become so childish when playing hahax...sooo cute...lol...her smile really makes me happy especially her dimples too...den she skip tuition becoz of me again...haiz...feel bad that she skip but happy that she can pei me...hehe...den hor...i lost my brown Benko.....haiz.....sad sad sad,,,,but nvm la....haha...after that i send her home lo...now then reach home....haha...promised her to slp early la...haha...good nitez!!!

Today...Hmmm....early morning already tio kan by mother for my brother dropping the bubble tea...zzz...is like not my fault la...is my brother ma...wan scold also scold him...den become scold me...-.-...is like damn not happy la...become my fault la...damn pissed off la...-.-...wth lo...haiz...den derek call me for badminton den suay kang la...hahax...kanna kan by me...hahax...ps ar...sry...not purposly de...is u suay lo...wrong timing...HAHA...den don wan to badminton liao totally no mood lo...

Then suddenly she can meet me...i am so happy also...i go find her lo...den i help her with her work lo...den we eat tgt den go slack lo...talk abt alot alot of things also...den very happy also la...but have to go home le...so sad...so went home around 10 plus lo...haha...ok la slp liao le...good nitez...

Today wake up super early...and damn happy...hahax...afternoon go return bike to qy den went to the cc opp tampines polyclinic de...WHY??? To play badminton with marcus derek weiping and sandy...-.-...but then i go there use phone de...nvm play much la...only take the racket and smack two three times nia...end up also muz pay for the court money...-.-...like that also gei gao...but then nvm la...juz pay lo...hmmm...after that go qy hosue downstair there eat rice den walk go home with marcus but then he skate la...but i walk...Zzz...but then nvm la...got people pei me msg luh...hehe...

Reach home suddenly wan to talk to her lo...den call her...hahax...i juz miss her so much lo....haiz...cant see her...:( then we talk daoooo~ going to 11 plus...den got to hang her...tml she got sch ma...ya...so happy that we talk abt alot la..hahax...found some same thing...haha...ok la...gotta slp liao le...GOOD NITEZ!!!

Today at home until dinner lo...Zy come my house lo...den he play cs...damn funny luh....but then i was not very focus on him playing la...i am more focus on my msg with her...hahax...den after that cant msg...haiz...coz she meet some people...haiz haiz haiz...!!! so nvm lo...den i was still waiting for her msg to come...den after eat liao...marcus say wan to come my house...hahax...coz he wan to play with my bro la...so dick derek marcus jason and zy come my house slack lo..hahax..den marcus play with my bro lo...haha...hmmm...den finally her msg come...hahax...i was so happy la...hahax...den msg until they go home...den suddenly she say she cant msg liao...haiz...so i call her la...HAHA...chat with her until she slp lo...DEN HOR...i go to my room emo rest awhile...den suddenly i hear smth la...its raining la...omg...i straight away think of her la den msg her while i close the window...haiz...why do i reply so slow.........arghhhhhhh....!!! sry sry sry luh~...my brain and hands too slow...:( Haiz.....ok la...i now go slp le...got to wake up super early tml....GOOD NITEZ!!!

Hmmm....Today...i wake up with a happy mood also...coz i dreamt of someone pretty...but then i don know why is she singing in my dreams...hahax...anyway..happy again to see my hp with messages...hahax...hmmm...but then the sunburn is hurting me la...-.-...is pain daooooo~...but then nvm la...hahax...den saw my sis using com lo...so let her use first...

When my turn use hor....i watch shows lo....naruto, wrestling...hahax...den after that play one game with frens...den off com rest...hmmm...then i tot also can prepared to go out liao...end up le...haiz...cannot meet...arghhh....i am so looking forward to meet her la...but then becoz got smth la...den cannot meet liao...haiz...SADED...I soooooooooo wan to see her de...and also wan to tell her alot of things de...haiz...SADED!!! But then Even though nvr meet la...but i also talk to her on phone for almost the whole evening...hearing her voice juz makes me feel soooo happy......Ahhhhh~....hahax....hope the thing dissappear la...den can see her asap le....haiz...sch re-open le...don know still can see her for alot of times not....but hope she will be able to meet me...hmmm...ok la...i wan to slp liao le...Good nitez...

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